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oh boy... [06 Jun 2004|12:47am] [ mood | peaceful ] [ music | the beatles ] oh wow its been a while.... so lets just quickly go over some memories... First of all, my sweet 16 was sooo much fun! thank you everyone for coming and for your generous gifts! I had an awesome time and I hope everyone else did, too! =0) I went camping last weekend...I love my family! We had so much fun...got stalked by some quite crazy characters...just to name a few>>>>the guy who pretended he was retarded, the mexican man at the pool, BUDDY AND JOSH ("I'LL FIND YOU"...next day..."FOUND YOU!" "Are you hawaiian? Well, your hair and the flower and THE WAY YOU SHAKE THOSE HIPS!") "No shoes, no shirts, no problems," dottie and al=0(, lisa!!!, N 32---wait! i mean B 5!, I'm your private dancer...dancing for money do what you want me to do!, Dance off, beer pong, getting my 9 year old cousins drunk haha Oh, such good times! Thursday was prom....i had so much fun! me and bryan danced the night away lol Everyone looked so beautiful, it was great! Basically everyone was drunk, including the teachers....Fordi was passed out by the end of the night hahahaha. Dancing with Mr. Smith was quite possibly the greatest moment of my life. Yesterday I saw Harry Potter with Shannon...oh god that Ron Weasely gets me weak in the knees every single time! I am a huge Harry fan, but I have to say that after finally seeing the 3rd Lord of the Rings...well nothing can beat LOTR. After that, I went to a-bees with Katy and Alexis and we talked, rented one of my favorite movies(Cruel Intentions) and just hung out at Alexis's house...it was such a girly night haha Tonight I went out with the 6~pack...it was a fun night like always. Some guy tried to sell me purple haze hahahaha. Got into a little car chase with some Pakistinian men. Maybe I'll post pictures if I find out how to, which is very doubtful. Okay, so that wasn't exactly a quick post, sorry. Alright thats enough for now...oh one more thing.... ONLY FOUR MORE DAYS LEFT OF SCHOOL!!!!! =0)))) Thank god! 53000-21+

[15 May 2004|12:20am] [ mood | not too great ] [ music | pretty girls make graves ] So the school year is coming to an end. thank god. hmm...whats been going on lately? these past few weeks has had its ups and downs. more downs than ups.=0\ sweet 16 is friday. great. i still have a lot of work to do. hopefully everyone will have a good time. i have to stop doing some things. i'm gonna be a better person. i promise. i wish my head would clear up. 43000-21+

cheer up...honey i hope you can [27 Apr 2004|05:00pm] [ music | movielife ] Everyone come see Voices From the High School starring yours truly(not really, but I'm in it lol) at the Lindenhurst High School this Friday and Saturday at 8 pm sharp! $5.00 for a ticket...ask me if you want to buy one, because I have 20 of them I was told to sell 2 weeks ago and I kinda forgot that I had them haha.... Sooooooo everyone come!!! Well, its recommended for a mature high school audience due to graphic content so don't bring any little kids or any old people prone to heart attacks. 83000-21+

TODAY WAS OUT OF CONTROL [18 Apr 2004|08:14pm] [ mood | giggly ] [ music | Wilco<3 ] So here's whats been going on lately... school sucks more than ever. This is the part of the year where I get really lazy because I can't stop thinking of how close summer is. The year was going by really fast, but now its just dragging out... I can't explain how happy I'm feeling... the weather is absolutely beautiful! I've been listening to music that I used to listen to all the time last summer and it makes me feel really nostalgic. Last summer was the best summer and I hope this summer will live up to it...the 6~pack is reuniting. ah i can't wait! This weekend went by wayyyy too fast. Friday I went to apple bees with Alexis, Courtney, Shannon, and Christina. We saw all of Lindenhurst there. Then we went back to Shannon's, which was alright...I was a little tipsy. Saturday I went to John's house. got crunked...had fun...i was so tired though, I just wanted to go to sleep the whole time. Today I woke up with a bad hangover... Oh and then today I had to go to this christening thing with Sara and Amanda...i don't even know but i wound up in the house George Washington used to live in somehow...apparently its haunted. I love Sara and Amanda...we had a really good time today. I've never been to such a crawazieeeeee party!!! ah i've had enough....goodbye!! 53000-21+

Vacation.... [11 Apr 2004|12:50am] [ mood | sleepy ] [ music | Amanda's mix tape ] So vacation has been pretty good so far. It depends on what day it is...Lindenhurst basically sucks and nothing ever goes on here. Tonight was Katy's sweet 16 and shes looked absolutley beautiful. I had fun dancing the whole night with the girls...(the infamous mom dance haha)Her candle for me and the girls was really nice...it was a very good night. hmmm...since the last time I updated, I've been hanging out with my sister...going roller blading because the weather is finally pretty!(Yes, I know no one goes roller blading anymore), going to the gym and trying to get toned so that I don't look completely gross this summer in a bikini(if i don't have a 6~pack by the summer then its gonna be one pieces for me), hanging out with shannon, i think alexis and katy a little, and bryan=0), I also am proud to say that I went to Michael Albano's house for breakfast and we ran Voices. His house is sooooo nice. I'm gonna marry that man. Amanda came home from California today! Thank god...i missed her a lot! She didn't have her phone on her so there was no means of communication between us =0( And I miss the 6~pack. I barely hung out with them at all this vacation...not even Kaitlin. I really miss that girl. Tomorrow I'm going upstate for Easter/Greek Easter. Good thing they fall on the same day this year. Then its off to Syracuse University on Monday and then Buffalo University on Tuesday and hopefully by Tuesday night I'll be home....I'm not looking foward to this little trip. ughhhhh i don't want to go back to school on thursday. This whole vacation is going by way too fast for my liking. ummmmm I'm done for now. Sweet Dreams <3 23000-21+

VACATION!!!! [04 Apr 2004|12:53pm] [ mood | flirty ] [ music | boys night out ] Yes, its FINALLY vacation! Almost two weeks of just relaxing...i'm excited! Friday night Sara, Kaitlin, Alexis, Erin, Diana, and me all went to Doc Lee Lau's to kick off vacation the right way of course. We drank, drank some more, drank a little more after that, and ordered 6 almond cookies(lmao girls) Yeah...two glasses of wine and I was good for the night>>>the perks of being a light weight! So anyway, all of a sudden Sara whips out Kaitiln's laser and she starts pointing it at this 20 year old guy and a hermaphrodite who was sitting across from us. They got a little offended but they were cool and invited us to a Massapequa party, but we didn't wind up going. (too bad...i've always wanted to party with a herm) So then me and Sara are outside and all of a sudden a middle-aged(lets say 47) man comes outside and starts to initiate conversation. Of course sara and me accepted his initiation and we talked for a good 15 minutes. Then we left and moved the party to applebees. Kaitlin threatened to beat up a few hosts and waiters...good times. CLYDE GOT FIRED AND HES A DRUG REHAB FOR COCAINE! =0( I was so upset when I found out the news...me and clyde were two peas in a pod...we went together like peanut butter and jelly...i knew he was the man I was going to spend the rest of my life with when we first met. Sooooo.....anyways all of a sudden this 30 year old gangsta guy comes up to me and says "yo yo yo...wut upppppp girl???!!!!! Listen, mah friend ova thur wantz ur number, aight? Wat u think?" So right about now me and Kaitlin are hysterical laughing and of course we go over to talk to the guy...then before I know it this drunk 45 year old man comes up to me and starts to hit on us. He wanted to buy me a drink hahahahhaha. After that I kinda decided that it was time to leave. Oh man, I love applebees. There comes a time in every girl's life when she has to take down her pink canopy with white embroidered hearts on the rim. That day was yesterday April 3, 2004 for me. It was hard to part with it, but I gathered enough courage to finally do it...I've been anticipating this moment for 15 years of my life. I'm sorry to disappoint everyone. Last night me and sara went to Ray's house for Anthony's birthday. And I apologize to everyone that I told I was a hermaphrodite to. After Ray's, me and Sara went to Bryan's house and hung out there for a while. I had a fun night =0) The only thing I really need to get done this vacation is my sweet 16 guest list and writing out my candles...I'm looking foward to writing out my candles though... Oh and Thursday, Mr. Michael Albano has invited me over his house for breakfast...along with the 23 other people in the Voices cast lol, but hey at least I get to spend some quality time with the man of my dreams...Michael Albano <3 Okay, this entry is way too long for my liking...Goodbyeeeee everyone! 13000-21+

It's been a long time... [22 Mar 2004|01:50pm] [ mood | nervous ] [ music | Counting Crows - Colorblind(best song ever) ] So much, but yet so little has happened since my last update. First off Syracuse was amazing....one of the funnest weekends ever. I miss Shannon, Korey,Becca and the crew. Hopefully I'll be visiting there again soon! I've been getting a lot done between my sweet 16, BOCES audition pieces, and LIPAC and everything. My BOCES audition is this wednesday!!! AHHH I'm so nervous that I get sick just thinking about it. My song is as good as it can get with my voice(which means it sucks), and my monologue has come a long way...I'm staying home tomorrow to work on it some more though. The whole dance audition part should be relatively easy, along with the improv. Hah...I probably just jinxed myself...we'll see how it all goes. Hm...I made the school drama, Voices From the High School. I just wish it had a plot...Oh well. I'm doing a scene where I'm an alcoholic,and another scene where I'm a ballerina haha. I like my group member, so thats cool. I got my sweet 16 dress...its white and poofy and it has a layer of pink flowers over it. I love it! I also got my invitations printed, decorations, and center pieces. The theme is flowers and spring I guess. Whatever, I just want everyone to have a good time. Speaking of Sweet 16's I went to Pam's the other night and it was a lot of fun. I got to see my bestest friend Liz Smith who I miss dearly. We caught up on old times and we should be hanging out over April vacation. Life is really good lately. I have amazing friends who are always there for me.=0) Thank yous! And Kaitlin, I love you and we'll always be bestest friends no matter what happens. hmm...theres this guy...we'll see what happens with that... So I think thats it for now! Comment and wish me break a leg on my audition! ahhh so nervous! 13000-21+

This update is for Jesse..... [16 Feb 2004|11:02pm] [ mood | nerdy ] [ music | Death Cab For Cutie ] Wow, two updates in a matter of 2 days. I'm getting a little out of control here. Tomorrow I'm leaving for Syracuse. Sara and me are going to spend two nights at Shannon's dorm. I'm so excited! We're gonna have so much fun. Then I'll be home on Friday and hopefully something good will be going down here. So I've been working on my audition piece for BOCES. I've read the play about 3 times, but whenever I'm done reading it and I start to perform the damn monologue, these emotions just take over me and I can't stop crying for a good half an hour because its so sad. But it'll work to my advantage hopefully. Ah, I just watched one of the worst movies...ever. Nobody waste your time or money to see Thirteen. It was not the least bit realistic. Oh mommy! The talent show is coming up! I'm gonna do THRILLER and Cell Block Tango with my fellow LIPACIANS, etc. Yeah, watch out kids...you got some competition. Enough for tonight. Sweet Dreams <3 13000-21+

This time I planned it badly, but I'll do better next time.... [15 Feb 2004|12:22am] [ mood | flirty ] [ music | Jewel aka my father ] Sooooo, last night was absolutley absurd. -Toga party at Matty's house.(enough said) -Walking to applebees from 3rd street in the freezing cold with nothing but a short jean skirt on, a shirt, a jacket, and a spiderman sheet(haha). -Getting pushed into bushes by someone, not to mention any names but SHAWN SCHATZLE! -My shoe breaking. =0( -Drama Drama Drama. Yeah, thats all I have to say about that. Tonight was a good night. I went to Katy's house and we were just hanging out for a while and then her mom was kind enough to drive us to applebees. So we get to applebees at 10:45 I'd say, so anyway this southern guy that works there starts talking to us about being halves...long story...we'll just leave it at that for now though. Anyway, we talked a lot tonight about everything that was on our minds...mostly guys heh We got a lot of things out that needed to be said and discussed. I'm so lucky that I have friends like Katy who just give me advice and listen to me when I need them. <3 Thank you. I feel as if this vacation is barely even a vacation. I have so much to do! BOCES audition is coming up! AHHH!!!! I feel so overwhelmed between visiting colleges, auditions, school, LIPAC, outside activities, guys, sweet 16 planning...ah and so much more...everything is just stressing me out lately. I just have to take it as it comes though. I can't wait until Tuesday! SYRACUSE TIME!!!! Alright, thats it for now....peaceeeeeee 33000-21+

[27 Jan 2004|12:27am] I stole this out of Jesse's journal who stole it out of Sean's journal. Fill it out or don't...i don't really care. I'm just bored and no one ever comments and I don't feel like making a real update. [ 1 ] when and how did we meet: [ 2 ] what did you first notice about me: [ 3 ] what do you like most about me: [ 4 ] are we friends: [ 5 ] have you ever seen me with my shirt off: [ 6 ] have you ever seen me cry: [ 7 ] describe me in four adjectives: [ 8 ] if we could spend a day together what would we do: [ 9 ] have we ever gotten in a fight: [ 10 ] if you could give me a present what would it be: [ 11 ] would you hug me: [ 12 ] what do you really think of me: [ 13 ] have we ever kissed: [ 14 ] has there ever been anything you wanted to tell me but were scared to: [ 15 ] wanna makeout: [ 16 ] what don't you like about me: [ 17 ] what makes you think of me: [ 18 ] whats your name: [ 19 ] am i nice to you: [ 20 ] have we ever dated: 133000-21+

I've always fallen fast with too much trust in the promising that "no one's ever been here..." [24 Jan 2004|12:38am] [ mood | cold ] [ music | Death Cab For Cutie ] Well it's been a long time since the last update... Guys and Dolls went great! I already miss the cast and those long rehersals...it was all worth it. Everyone did a wonderful job! Tonight I hung out with Kaitlin, Amanda, and Sara...like always, it was a crazy night! Well, I'll just give you a little preview of the night... We broke into Pete's house for the 2nd time this week. This time he wasn't home. We hid in his bedroom(in the closet, under the bed, etc.)...it was hilarious! Pete was so scared when he came home and walked into his room...he wouldn't have even noticed if it was for Sara and Amanda's uncontrolable laughter. I'll try to post the pictures that Amanda took of us hiding.(but i'm technology retarded so that probably won't happen. I'm just lucky I know how to work the keyboard.) I love these girls more than anything...we can talk about anything and everything...it doesn't matter what it is. We're always there for eachother through the good times and the bad. I honestly don't know where I would be without them in my life. So, to say the least, this week has been pretty bad and the only people that have been keeping me sane is the 6pack. A lot of people just aren't who I thought they were. Sometimes I just want to go so far away from this town and just start over. On another note, midterms are this upcoming week! AHHHH sooooooo much studying to do! I'm not looking foward to it =0( But atleast I don't have to sit through a whole day of school... I need to find audition pieces...I found this wonderful, colorful monologue that I really want to use...I just hope I can do it justice. And as for the song...oh god, I'm dreading the song. I just wish I was blessed with a good voice...Well, I'll just have to find a good song in my range. I'm so nervous about the auditions! At auditions my nerves take over me...I've been in the LIPAC company for about 6 years now and I still get nervous every single year when I have to audition for the senior company. LIPAC is pratically my second home and there's a guaranteed spot open for me in their company every year, but my nerves still act up and my stomach does flip flops. I hate it. I have to audition for Boces and Cap21. I highly doubt that I'll make it into any of them, but its worth the shot...I'll never know unless I try. I just want to develop myself more as an actress and performer and I know that these programs will play a significant role in achieving my aspirations. Well, thats enough for tonight. I doubt any of you read that whole entry. Goodnight<3 13000-21+

[11 Jan 2004|10:04pm] GUYS AND DOLLS January 16th and 17th $8 for a ticket Girls will be stripping...yes thats right 10 sexy ladies will be stripping(and one sexy kevin pike) Show starts at 8:00 pm sharp Buy a ticket soon because we will sell out and you don't wanna miss out! 53000-21+

MARIE MAYES'S SWEET 16!!! [07 Jan 2004|08:59am] awwww shit! Marie looked absolutley gorgeous the other night! Her sweet 16 was a blast and i hope she had a very happy happy happy birthday! SHAKE IT LIKE A POLARIOD PICTURE! +

[02 Jan 2004|01:11am] [ mood | peaceful ] [ music | Postal Service - brand new colony ] "I'll be the grapes fermented, bottled and served with the table set in my finest suit like a perfect gentleman. I'll be the fire escape that's bolted to the ancient brick where you will sit and contemplate your day. I'll be the waterwings that save you if you start drowning in an open tab when your judgement's on the brink. I'll be the phonograph that plays your favorite albums back as your lying there drifting off to sleep...I'll be the platform shoes and undo what heredity's done to you; you won't have to strain to look into my eyes. I'll be your winter coat buttoned and zipped straight to the throat with the collar up so you won't catch a cold. I want to take you far from the cynics in this town and kiss you on the mouth. We'll cut our bodies free from the tethers of this scene, start a brand new colony where everything will change, we'll give ourselves new names(identities erased) the sun will heat the ground under our bare feet in this brand new colony. Everything will change..." That is the most beautiful song and its everything I want in a guy....i wish someone would write me a song like that. haha wishful thinking.... 13000-21+

Christmas!!!!! [26 Dec 2003|02:21am] [ mood | geeky ] [ music | Postal Service ] Okay time for an update...MERRY CHRISTMAS AND HAPPY HOLIDAYS EVERYONE!!!!!!! Christmas was magnificent! This truly is the most wonderful time of the year. Yesterday, the Bues/Logelfo side of the family came over for Christmas Eve. It was some good times between basement talk and the tap dancing to Outkast by Grandma and Grandpa. Today I woke up at about 10:30(pretty late lol)and went downstairs and found all of my presents under the Christmas tree. Then after about 2 hours I hopped in the shower, got ready and went upstate. Boy, oh boy, the Greek side of my family is one crazy bunch! Gotta love 'em! I got a bunch of nice things...thank you everyone =0) hm....crazy nights with the 6~pack so far this vacation....i love you girls more than anything! We always have the craziest, most ridiculous, funnest times together! I can't even begin to explain what we ran into so far this vacation...besides if i actually took the time to write it all out, it really wouldn't be worth it because half of you wouldn't believe it. All I gotta say is the replacement applicants are looking better and better...LINDSAY WE STILL LOVE YOU!!!! THIS IS ONLY TEMPORARY BECAUSE YOU LIVE IN PA AND YOU'RE NEVER HERE! Guys and Dolls rehersals have been going alright I guess...Mr.Albano gets a little angry from time to time...i'm not gonna lie, but i still love that man more than i love having a romantic candle light dinner with Mr.Pramnieks and Mr.Notarfrancesco at the same time. It seems like i have an endless number of costumes which should be fun during the show....gotta love those quick changes! We just learned the dance to Luck be a Lady and i absolutley love that song! I like that dance the best out of all of them...i don't really care much for the other dances...oh well, its all good! Guys and Dolls will be on January 16th and 17th. $8.00 for a ticket at Lindenhurst High School....I suggest that you come if you like to see sexy ladies strip down to lingerie... Oh and in regards to my love life...there is none, therefore I won't write about one unless you want to hear some depressing stuff, which I'm sure none of you do, so I won't waste your time... Goodnight Everyone!!!!! I hope you all had as much fun as I had this holiday season! +

[13 Dec 2003|12:50am] [ mood | sad ] [ music | Inside ] I went to see Kaitlin's play tonight...it was great! Kaitlin was the best one up on that stage...she never ceases to amazing me! Afterward, Sara and I were going to go home, because we have to get up early tomorrow(city), but I was really hungry, so we went to applebees and then the cup instead. On the way home we just talked. Sara is my best friend. I really don't know what I'd do without my sister, but I know one thing...if it wasn't for her, I wouldn't be here right now. I feel bad for people who have to write all of their feelings down in there journal(well, what I'm kinda doing right now), but I do keep a lot of feelings and things to myself and I think somethings you just NEED to keep to yourself. I just started talking to her about all of the things I've been feeling lately. How I've been feeling so empty and other things that I'd rather not talk about, and she just listened to me and consoled me. I could honestly tell her anything and everything...and I do. She's the only person I would fully open myself up to, and I guess that makes sense because we're sisters. I just hope that everyone has someone to count on. I'm sorry...tonight was just so emotional and I couldn't neglect it. +

[07 Dec 2003|01:09am] I ____ Jessica. Jessica is ____. If I were alone in a room with Jessica, i would _______. I think Jessica should______. Jessica needs ____. Jessica will never ______. I want to _________ Jessica. Jessica can ______ my _______. Sorry Amanda, I'm bored and don't feel like making a real update but i do need to update so you know 43000-21+

[29 Nov 2003|12:38am] [ mood | blank ] HAPPY THANKSGIVING YESTERDAY!!!!!!! So far, the vacation is going pretty good. On Wednesday, Alexis, Courtney, Katy, John, Kevin, Mike and I went to the movies to see Gothika. I thought the movie was great! But I feel really bad because I was late picking everyone up because Sara and I were making some kick ass michael jackson faces in the mirror...so we had to sit in the very front row...I'm really sorry guys!!!!! But all in all, it was a good time! Then, Katy's mom drove us to a-bees because Katy was hungry. We ate and then went home. Thursday-Thanksgiving(i gained 500 pounds), 6~Pack(enough said), then today Amanda and I went thrifting. Afterwards, I went to see the Sound of Music in Smithtown with the famz. Tomorrow = 80's party!!! I got one crazy costume!!!!!! Alright, I'm done...P@EACE! +

Vanilla Bean Noelle [23 Nov 2003|09:46pm] [ mood | indifferent ] Last night after playing my saxophone for the football players(yes, its true I'm with the band), I got home around 11:30 and Sara and I drove to pick up Kaitlin and Amanda. I love these girls more than anyone ever! We went to applebees and then just drove around on DPA. We met so many weirdos, you would not believe! I would try to describe the night to you, but I don't even know how I could tell you what happened...I just can't find the words. I had one of the funnest times of my life! My stomach still hurts from laughing. Today my mom comes home with all of this Vanilla Bean Noelle(my favorite scent) merchandise from bath and body works! Oh, I was so thrilled!!!! The scent reminds me of winter <3 Then I went to Amanda's house for Uncle John's birthday which was grand. I got a new bra today...Thanks Amanda! Besides that, a lot of people are acting really strange around me lately and I don't know why...enlighten me please =0) 23000-21+

I'll never write the letter I wish you could read...the words perfectly [21 Nov 2003|07:51pm] [ mood | gloomy ] [ music | Anniversary ] I don't know what's wrong with me lately. I've just been feeling so depressed and upset. I've been crying all night long and I barely ate anything at all today. I don't want to burden whoever reads this about my problems, though. So here's a little rundown on the day.... Nothing exciting. I retook my math test which I got a lower score than I began with, which sucks. Then I had to stay after for play rehersal which was fun fun fun! I got to try on my dresses that I have to wear...so far I got three of them, but I believe I need 3 more. Well, the one which I will be wearing for the majority of the show is an ocean blue color that has a low cut neck and goes down to my knees. I'm pretty happy with it considering the selection of dresses we had to choose from. Since I'm a hooker for part of the show, Sara, Teriann, and I have to wear these velvet long sleeve dresses. They are grotesque...they look nothing like hooker dresses. AND THE NIPPLES ON THE SHIRT AREN'T EVEN WHERE MY NIPPLES ARE! It was so funny trying it on! Then, for "take back your mink" we have to wear these seafoam green sheets that have velcro on it and I know it doesn't sound pretty, but it doesn't really matter because 30 seconds into the song we'll be stripping off the dress and then we'll be left in our lavender Victoria Secret lingerie. hm...sounds like quite the appropiate high school show.... IF YOU WANT TO SEE A WONDERFUL MUSICAL WITH GIRLS STRIPPING ON STAGE, COME TO THE SHOW!!!!! Also, North Babylon is putting on a production of "You Can't Take It With You" staring the ever so famous Miss Kaitlin Bennett...it's sure to be an amazing show(with kaitlin as the lead ofcourse) So come December 5th and/or December 6th to the North Babylon High School at 8:00 pm to see a magnificant show with a brilliant star! 23000-21+

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